Been a long time

Have you ever had the keys of change and a drastic turn around dangle before you, and you are too lethargic to reach out?

I feel that way. I feel that I am on the brink of finally taking control of the responsibilities in my life...of me leading them, and not the other way around...and I am too focused on dreaming about it that I don't want to wake up and realize that it is there.

What happened to the Tony that was so goal focused?

He didn't die...he just got bogged down with feeling the need to conform to someone else's life...someone else's dream...

I am sick of it. I need to unshackle myself from the binds of pity and this saviour-mentality that has engroped me. I need to get out of that mode...I need to let go.